Craig....If there was one person I can honestly say has shows serious improvement in the last few years in there game, its Craig. I remember when he couldnt make a ball to save his life, now every body fears the guy when he walks down the steps of BBC. Behind his plesent smile and very well behaved manners in his carried presence along with his profesional pool edicate is a secret assassin waiting to kick your ass; yes he will go for that combo on the nine and not do that " I wont do it so we can have a game thing". Some guys never learn and others learn quickly and there are those who know how to learn and keep learning. The art of learning is vital if you intend to keep growing beyond levels you never imagined you would reach.

Final words for April. Theme Song Incubus "Warning"
Good bye April 2004, its been a strange yet tolerant month, but I have lived stranger, I have loved and lost won and gotten beaten, but never will I say for these days I haven’t eaten-everything I mouthed off about and kept silent about. What am I talking about? Who knows, this is the kind of month it’s been. It starts with old past never going to change and eating bad Sushi for the first time. This was the month of new beginning and death of old beginnings. I feel older for the time in 20 years. I cant see what’s ahead right now but I am definitely living day by day with a kind of Karma that leads me some were in the middle. I feel I am doing things right and my old self is going to die; permanently. I need a shave.
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Today someone ask about her (Thursday night)
Unbelievable, still this girl has people seeking her out and wondering were is she. I really hated being the barer of bad news. Funny, I was thinking about her last week and strongly Wednesday on the train ride home; I almost started to cry even when I came to the idea of how she was taken away. You see, on Wednesday when I went to the store with Ronnie for our useale coffee run, and on the way back toward the same corner were “she” was found on. I almost tripped coming off the curb. It was so dam dark there on the ground anybody can fall off of it and land face first on the street, that’s when it occurred to me that maybe she simply tripped of the curb and then was struck. The ideas alone made me welt in the eyes on the train car that Wednesday night. Then Thursday evening someone who had not been at the bar for the last two years asked for her. I tripped twice on the corner, and once I looked the wrong way. I miss her dearly and wonder in the next after life is she ever going to play on my team.
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Some people just don’t know how to behave with me.
I asked if she wanted to take a picture and she got emotional about it, jeez all she had to do was say no. I tried to make nice with her and the more I do it the more attitude she gives me, until I start ignoring her then she’ll asks me why am I ignoring her? What a Dummy.

(After I got beat up by criag I went to E-bar Thursday night)

Captain Ronnie Comacho #4 And Captain William Fuentes#4

Boggie night Daniel Ron and Mel SeX PoT Cynthia Bloody Mary Shalon

Ok so I played my match for my Tuesday team…we won, I won. I broke and ran the last table; the last game…Last game of the season. We are now in first place. Everybody played well. Weeeeeeeeeee; to bad this is not Rumble Fish I am talking about.

Rachelle wants to be a Rumble fish next season, so does Champion Drew, Michelle, Vivian, Marsha, Alex, Kimba and about three to five other names I cant think of off the top of my head right now. Funny, we lose the season and everybody wants to jump on the team. But when, we were winning why back when, for the last 4 seasons in a row, I had a hard time finding players during that whole time; what is this?

So afterward, team stick it in went to the E-bar for celebration shots. And that’s when Shot man and the Bar-Ladies there got a little wacky.

My co-captain Michelle likes belly buttons for dinner

Handsome Drew with his handsome brother. Drew will be a Rumblefish next season, Drew is the guy in the blue tee not the collerd shirt. Then there is "Ya" another killer pool player not to mention-kinda-yummy; HmmmmmMMm?

Things are getting a little tuff for me right now. Once again I am reminded that the only person I can rely on is me; I think. I’m not in a do or die situation or anything. In fact, it’s quit simple; just leave and deal with the consequence. The consequence is not so bad. I mean, I’m living that way already. I will just have to set up correctly before I take off.

About last night. I have learned something new about xxxxx I never new before. I see why she is such a great shot on the pool table. She is a Virgo, very competitive. Me on the other hand; am not competitive; I like the sport for the sport. Sometimes though when I find my self playing someone who want to win no matter what, ill just give it to em, even though I did write once I will show no mercy to anyone ever, I think its different when the prize for a win is just gloating. Gloating is not a trophy for me. Sometimes when I play some one I really like something inside of me falls asleep; just the little part that I need to get to the end of the race. My incentive moves around; sleep walks; I really don’t know what it is.

I got poisoned at Bowling Lanes. I went bowling with Aaron Claudio and xxxxx. It was fun but the beer was so bad I threw up; a lot. I was so sick. But Bowling was great. Cluadio has the best form I have ever seen in my life. Ill do more of it later.

I have a hard time beating people I like, or love. perhaps this applies to my personal life as well; maybe. My ___ is asking me to lie about something, again. This thing will only benifit him and him only. If I drop dime on him he will go to jail. But becuse we are related I cant do it. This is affecting my games I think. If I got mean maybe ill be a winner. But sometimes when you win you lose.

Hypocrisy, Pretense, Irony...Oh my If you tell me you are good at pool and your not, does that mean your good becuse you said you are? If you have black strait hair and you tell me its blond curly hair but I clearly see black strait hair, I dont give a shit what you tell me you have, I see black strait hair . If you get a sheet of paper and a pencil and tell me you are going to draw a square and then you draw a circle but insiste you drew a square, I hate to break the news to you, but you drew a circle; your action was a circle. If I say get out of my house and then I yell with tears dont leave,well.... what does this mean?

So I went to practice. 50/50 Fuentes strikes again. Before I went to the pool hall I was informed one of my fellow co-workers is quitting. My workload has now tripled in the last three days. Anyway I went to the bar to tell Patrick and Cynthia happy birthday. Cin-wants a pair of Lucky Number seven Jeans. They were getting drunk and all were merry. Stephanie walked in. she looked yummy; a little too yummy. I walked away after I said hello. I might of started behaving like a little puppy dog if I hung around too long. MmmMMmmMMMmm Stephanie. Ok William stop it.

Rumble fish is in second place, so I was informed; Wow. My team is macho. Next season we will be even more Macho. This will be the fifth season we make it to the playoffs.

I wonder why xxxxx and I are still bickering. I will have to analyze this one carefully. We need to get things resolved. Perhaps when we get our trophies, finally, things will clear-up; hopefully. She’s my buddy. Were just blowing off steam I guess, from old-slightly-over-dramatic-events. She will always be welcomed on my team, but if she doesn’t want to join that’s ok too. She’ll always be a Rumble Fish no matter who uses her…..er I mean who team she plays with.

xxxxx says my theme song is the Super Mario Brothers...

Action speaks louder than words…
I hate it when people put words in my mouth. Especially if you did not hear me say it. Words only have a true meaning with an action behind it? If you want to leave something behind, that’s it, it’s a free country, don’t feel bad when you make a hard decision, a lot of people quit or leave things they sometimes cant handle at the moment, but if you feel like a loser or a quitter or you simply made a coastly mistake after doing it don’t blame someone or anyone else for it. Take responsibility for your own actions. Talk is meaningless without action. Action speak louder than words. So on that note

I’ll make it simple…about last monday... this applies to the whole team. If you don’t listen to me, and you are on my team. I wont keep you on my team. I will ask you to ether follow the rules of swimming in my lake or you can go else-were. It is not like I have a real choice. Who is going to respect a captain if he cant control his own players. No captain should keep anybody on there team if they are disrupting the harmony of the team. I don’t care if you are consistently winning or loosing. I have seen players have bad seasons and I have seen players have good seasons. I will not ask you to leave if you are having a bad season. That does not mean I will keep you if you are having a good season as well. I will not tolerate arrogant players. I will not tolerate delusional players on my team. If I have to keep asking you to stay quite and respect the other team mates while they are shooting. I will ask you to leave. If I have one player who is complaining about another player; both being on my team. I will have to weigh the pros and cons and make a decision. Based on the history of both players and a vote of popularity from the team; I will make the final decision. I do not want a week link on my team. Brian is my oldest player/teammate as well as Douglas. These are the two who will help me make a decision if I need cast a vote of keeping a player. If I end up with a co captain, the co captain will help me make a session as well. Unless my co captain is the problem then I will have to make the decision myself. Don’t sit by the table and start loud mouthing woulda-coulda-shoulda while the other teammates are shooting. It does not matter how right you appear to be about a coach or how wrong you are about a coach. If player “A” does not want a coach from player “B” then Player “B” should stay quiet and respect player “A”. I am the captain of Rumble fish. If you are not happy on the team please feel free to leave. I will not cry and smash cookies on the ground or cry over a skinned knee. I don’t judge people and I especially wont judge my game or anybody else’s but I am the captain of Rumble fish and that is not an easy job. I like every one on my team; our team. But…I don’t want ripples in the water. Rumble fish needs calm water to execute a proper xxxxxtory; now, back to my tuna sandwich. Thank you.

xxxxx is calling me sassy..grrrgrggrgggggrrrrrrrrrr.

Douglas did a reading yesterday. D is good. Then his sis went up, she read a very moving story; made me want to yell at everybody who voted for bush.

About Tuesday…
I played…I won. Some dude said, “Here come that guy whose gona get Samurai” Samurai Jack I’m called these days. The captain of the other team we played bought every body on both teams ice cream; how can ya-hate a guy like that, you cant. I was pretty cold when I played, it might have been the ice cream. I got lucky on a few shots. The other guy had heart. He had me a few times but missed critical shots. Eric came to watch me shoot; and drink. I corrected some smack the “V” told him Monday night. He looked at me and said, “ How could you, you loser! She “was” a great player, kicking her off was really dumb, you’re a loser William”. Bull shit he didn’t say that. Anyway, I miss Eric; we need to do something wacky one day.
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Funny thing happened…
When I spoke to xxxxx yesterday on the phone she laugh at me for acting like a little queen on Monday December 12. 2003-9:45pm during the APA pool match taking place in Ace bar; thought I just mention it again. Being she thought it was funny when we spoke about it this morning. What happened that day you ask?
The Story…The Drama…
When xxxxx announced her departure from my team and didn’t not want to tell me why that day. After trying to pull it out of her and all I got was silence. I smashed a bag of Oatmeal-raisin-cookies on the ground as if it was a bottle shattering on the floor; instead of hearing a violent crash you heard muffled crunch instead. Then I fell in front of Joe’s bar and skinned my knee as I was running and crying in despair around the block. The end.
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I got some people who want to join myteam next season who are pretty dam good.
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Today was Cybele's last day .We had a privet lunch and said our goodbyes. I am sad.
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xxxxx says I have changed but not changed. Uh?
She says I never think I am wrong. I don’t believe this is true. Of course not, because I am right. Dhu… So from now on I will not sound like I am right.

1. Eric is 30 years old

2. Evasive means
adj 1: deliberately vague or ambiguous; "his answers were brief, constrained and evasive"; "an evasive statement" 2: avoiding or escaping from difficulty or danger especially enemy fire; "pilots are taught to take evasive action" 3: skillful at eluding capture; "a cabal of conspirators, each more elusive than the archterrorist"- David Kline [syn:

xxxxx tried to sell me a Turtle for 5 bucks.

Yes... Why-thank-you...

Sunday
I have a feeling to learn a new critical shot; or practice the ones I know already. Learn and then for get what you learned, to know with out knowing is the way of the Rabbit-the-Monkey-the-Fox. Develop a natural instinct for the game with practice. Sometimes when I practice with my buddies they think I am trying to make the ball, they don’t realize I am practicing so they tell me why I missed; funny. A good game comes from practice, or at least for me. Develop patience and a clear vision. Understand the environment around your game table and master it. Don’t be judgmental. Give me another Bloody Mary...
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The APA number/level system is an inadvertent judgment of ones game.
Order and control must be maintained of course; it’s a bar people get drunk. Just to let you know, If I ever judge my game based on the would be skill level system then I would have left the APA already. Give me a Bloody Mary now....
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BBC
Saw George. I asked if he was looking to start a team; “Hey George! I heard you were looking to start a team? I said to him. This man had no idea what I was talking about, not a clue. Then I said, “xxxxx said you guys were looking to start a team”? He goes “what? No way!” Diana was there as I was talking to G. I looked at her after George said no way and I go and say to Diana. “Could it be he doesn’t know what I am talking about because he is stone cold sober? The Guy was like a whole new person. He even looked at me like he barley knew me; it was scary. His eyes were well slept; meaning none bloodshot and he spoke with coherency. He barley new me and you know something I barley know him. I need a Bloody Mary
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Four Bloody Maries and William is a dizzy boy.
I went to the E-bar. I am addicted to Shalon’s Bloody Maries. I’m getting my ass kicked in set. Shalon is now a set master. I am drunk on a Sunday. MMmeeEeyYyeeAaaaa. Today the clock goes forward it is now 12:15pm not 11:15pm.

The cool guy	Jhon	Michael

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Molly is single and also…
I am begining to see the transformation at the E-bar again.
anna paquin. She likes to smoke at the Ebar Patricks says. Now give me My Bloody Mary.

Keep it cool and dont loose it. Lets have some bloody maries on sunday

April 2 2004
7:30pm William you….Big-you…Mr. know it all….
Why did you bitch and moan…it’s old news already then again you did not do it alone, did you? It might be the trust issue; it might be. It’s not resolved nether one of us are submitting, I think. I have not spent quality time with my best buddy; but it’ll never happen I think. Personal time is definitely required; I’m dreaming. The issue in witch we departed on bad terms with is still lingering its like a nasty scare after a nasty. Look me in the eye and say it. But that wont happen in a long time’ I hope I am wrong. This issue is not with out its reward but it is definitely a ruff road. Maybe it’s for the best. But I feel so stupid right now and I can’t quit put my finger on why I feel the way I feel. I can’t see her in the face, I’ll get mad; conceded I am maybe? Or just full of too much pride. But it has to be this way; I think. Here I am sitting at the E-bar with an empty stomach and on my third bud and all I can think about is the wild flower. She was very special to me but I cant tell if she really evey belived it. I don’t like to lie and there are way to many lies going on here; from both ends. Perhaps its for the best it stays the way it is. Cause deep down inside, I will never forget that Monday I learned what the APA and my team meant to me.
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Just a personal feeling..not that I am starting trouble...but.
Some people would rather be used as a number and not a player. I thought about this long and hard and came up with some good rational. There are advantages and disavantagese about being used as a number for team your not really part of. But I think using people in general is quit evil; Bad Karma.
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I’m a little drunk right now. It’s fun to write a little drunk. You say or write the damnest things.
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10:05pm I am drunk…I’m coherent though…to bad
I’m wobbly. If I get up I am going to fall over; maybe. 10:10 pm. I didn’t fall when I went to take a pee.
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10:15 ok now I am bored with my drunkenness. 6 buds.
I think I’ll get something to eat and some coffee.
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11:19pm. Oh no!!! Aaron called!!! He’s on his way!!! Its drinking time again!!!
11:30 pm. Aaron showed up and we had a few.
1:30am some chick from church shows up and talks to me about god, I just stare. Not 20 minutes later she is making out with a complete stranger at the end of the bar. 3:15am some movie star chicks show’s up.

One and a half pounds.
This is how much me and Aaron ate at the Katez; a lot. Then we went to the bar to play pool. Aaron was playing strong knocking people out. But then slowly Aaron and me started to feel the effects of the food; uhggggg. We were bloated with meat and potatoes. Aaron ate the heavy stuff; pastrami. I ate a lot of turkey. When I told Cynthia me and Aaron ate at the katez she says” Oh, you had a pastrami sandwich? MmmmMMmm.” I said, “ I had turkey” she says “ Turkey! William I didn’t know you were gay? What kind of a fag eats Turkey?” I said. “ A-only-on-Thursday-fag”. The bloated feeling just kept getting worse. Our game turned to pastrami and all I can think about was my bed. Michelle wore a skimpy whity-tighty at the bar; oh-la-la, and there was live music again. It was good but I still kept thinking about sleep.

Bloody-Maries and a few buds can make will a wild boy.
Work was ok, but all I can think about was bloody Maries all day. So I went to the E-bar and drank a few or three or four. Michelle and I made two Bloody Maries, really hot and spicy then the nine o clock bartender came in and made me two more. I stole some flowers from the bar, then it was bud all night till one am. Boy was I piss drunk. My head was spinning and I played pool with out thinking hard 50/50 Fuentes strikes again. Michelle is living on her natural instinct. And Cynthia has finally got her ibook. Sam has a cute little doggy and AJ is getting a big head again. A regular day at E-bar.
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I stole some beads from Molly, love beads. Maybe we are in love; maybe. Maybe she wants some booty. But then again I am walking into April fools day drunk on Bloody Maries and Bud wiesers.
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Office incentives for a little booty.
Accepting gifts from someone who wants to sleep with you in witch you have no intentions on sleeping with is wrong and only leads to trouble. You look contemptible and a little selfish and it kinda gives the gift giver the impression that they have a chance of getting you in the sack; unless you plan on giving him some booty In the future. So smoke it up.
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