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Just a moment
I said to her she was my horse. I said to her Its ok if she wanted to change her pallet, I will hold no I'll will. Then I said to her "One should never be in a place they don't want to be, so commit to whatever your decision." She reassured me, and I felt confident we both made a good choice. Experience has taught me to look at it this way, 'its always nice to be asked and be wanted'. But the "nice" part about being asked depends on what kind of people are asking. Somtimes logic and the heart is not so even up. Sooner or later one-of-em is gonna need a spot.
I had questions in me that night. But I new, only time was gonna answer those questions. So, I got hammered. And all those questions that same night turned into one question, wheres my next drink? Can I get an AA? I can't afford to lose my cool anymore; health reasons. But getting stoned on scotch, did that help my health? Later I think, when they don't try and steal from you, do you now have something to worry about? There is something flattering here. Even though the song is old, we all need something new once in awhile. |
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He said to me, " he's mad at me" I thought to myself, I kinda-am too. Then I watched them hug, and that made me feel; sorta. So I played. I moved on with my life. And let it go. But I will not forget.
I'm not crazy. I know what I'm talking about. Numbers count. I don't forget history like most competitors need to. I mean, with most people, why shoot down thier own confident's with facts when lying about it to others and yourself is so much more enticing for a game.
History here is a matter of perspective to some. Regardless if its fact or fiction or ones twisted conviction. Yesterday, outside, It was cold and wet, but inside it was dry and warm with random solar flares from out the pocket. Tom didn't wear his team shirt. And I was called crazy.
Friends are more important to some people than this fuck'n league is anyway. I felt a little bad, just a little, it could be this slight cold I have making feel this way. |
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Jan 20th, 2012.. |
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Florence Nightingale Syndrome
"The Florence Nightingale Syndrome is also referred to as the Florence Nightingale Effect. This syndrome happens when an individual caring for another individual develops romantic feelings for them. More specifically the Florence Nightingale Syndrome is a psychological complex that might happen when a vulnerable patient is being cared for and their caretaker develops romantic and oftentimes erotic feelings for them. The Florence Nightingale Syndrome can also occur when the patient develops romantic feelings for their caretaker as they begin to see them as their protector" florence-nightingale-syndrome |
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On random days I have said hard things during lunch..
On 8-2011. I said to her "Because he knows he will never get penalized for being an asshole, he feels protected for-being an asshole." Unfortunately, this protection-inadvertently-encourages him to continue to be an asshole. He gets away with it (being an asshole) with just a warning. He has gotten so many warnings by now to him its almost a permission to be an asshole again. Because of so many years of this "asshole" patronage. Classic, spare the rod spoil the child. I almost now feel obligated to fix this annoyance being there are no real grown ups in this old scenario. I am a member and more important, am a paying member. So, for the sake of the quality of my membership and for the good of the other members. I am thinking of knocking his bitch ass out doing something about it. Hopefully he will learn something from it and later realize I was doing him a favor.
On 6-2011. Being discredited is a factor here. History matters. Records matter. 12 wins 5 losses means something. Life is not the dow jones. If he's cool with you and not with me than one of is beings used as a cushion and the other a mask.
On 7-2011. I said to her about six months ago "Im going to avoid the west coast for a while, being japan went thru a full blown nuculer Melt down and most people on that side of the world are sucking it up.
"Everyone hears what you say. Friends listen to what you say. Best friends listen to what you don't say"
A few day ago. You can call it a lie. Maybe an interpretation? Perspective? A twisted truth? A half truth? Its there and its not there? Once it was said the camera does not lie. Nowadays most cameras lie in great detail. The camera sheds a light on things we choose not see or didn't notice. We choose what we want to see. How we see. Why we see. Our favorite parts of what we see. Exaggerate and then wash out. See everything around it until something there emerges. I have written on my public profiles things like, "the falling of the light and shape of the shadows creates the significance of what is before us." Hmm? Vision. Go figure. I think I had a little more passion a few years ago.
I'd rather you not shit in front of me. You know, by hitting on a married woman continuously you are calling her a hore, right? I mean some circumstances might change the meaning who's really the hore. But we both know, she recently got married, and you shook the hand of the man that married her and now you are trying to sleep with her. You are doing it openly in front of other mutual friends and acquaintances of her and her husband, you are kind of telling me and her and her husband, f#ck you and everybody else around who notices cause I can do what I want when I want and how I want. This is the worse attitude anyone can have in life. Its the most hurtful and the most destructive.
I don't know anything these days, people are strange with each other these days, but I'm no different. For careless reasons, sometimes we make people out to be something they are not. Or. They are what we make them out to be, we just didn't know how much we cared about it. Or didn't care about it. Maybe our relationships are so personal that it just doesn't matter what we do with other people just as long as we don't do it to each other. Birds of the same feather flock together? No? Yes?
"Its not stress that kills us, it is our reaction to it" ~H.Selye
Today. Darkwolf says "republican or democrat, who ever fucks up is gonna get the ax of Democracy" |
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Drank like fish and left a tip bigger than the bill, rock stars we were; yes, oh yes, we were. |
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Jan 12th, 2012.. |
Shoot it.. A few days ago. |
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"A system of capitalism presumes sound money, not fiat money manipulated by a central bank. Capitalism cherishes voluntary contracts and interest rates that are determined by savings, not credit creation by a central bank" ~Ron Paul |
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| "Have you noticed the debt is exploding? And it's not all because of Medicare" ~Ron Paul |
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| "Friendship is born at that moment when one person says to another, 'What! You too? I thought I was the only one" ~CS Lewis |
"True love is like a pair of socks: you gotta have two and they've gotta match" ~Erich Fromm |
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JANUARY 6th, 2012.. |
About Last New Years Eve. FOTO SET 2#
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"This bright new year is given me
To live each day with zest . . .
To daily grow and try to be
My highest and my best!" |
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"Have the opportunity
Once more to right some wrongs,
To pray for peace, to plant a tree,
And sing more joyful songs!"
~William Arthur Ward |
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DEC 31st, 2011.. |
New Years Eve. FOTOSET 1#
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"Happiness is when what you think, what you say, and what you do are in harmony; good or bad " ~Mohandas Gandhi |
  
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